Forgiven so I can Forgive?

My first question is this; why did Jesus come to earth? I think that there are several answers and all would be partially correct. I think he came down as a guide. Some one to show us the way. How to live the best life. He also came to pay the price of our sin. Not to forgive us. You see God has already done that. By sending his son he shows that he already has. The next question is this; if you have forgiven someone do they have to ask in order for you to have forgiven them? I don't think so. When I ask someone to forgive me it's because I want to know if they have. Forgiveness is basically the same as grace. They mess up and you say it's ok knowing that they haven't changed and will do it again. But what God wants is repentance. And Jesus shows us what that looks like. We don't have to get it perfect because we are forgiven and have accepted that. But In all this the lord has saved us from death which we know was the consequence of our actions and if with this knowledge we do not aspire to become a better person then we truly are no better than sinners.

Leaping into a false reality.

So most people would agree that perception is half of reality. The only problem with that is then there is no common reality. Having your own reality isn't so bad all by itself but what happens when that reality draws other people in? I guess occasionally it works out and you get this wobbly senses of a common reality. But too often it fails and you are left wondering what happened. I'm not saying that is always going to be the case but so often it will as long as you continue to think in terms of your perceptions as reality. I don't want you to go and think that every perception but yours is reality but I want you to question yours. So that when the time comes for you to defend your reality you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that your perception is in fact reality and not just reality for you but for anyone else who hears it.

Trusting Denim

Lately I have felt under attack spiritually. In this instance the effects of the attack are very physical. It has left me with an emotional scar. Some one I knew very well has come to conclusions about me as a person that I would have never thought possible. The worst part in all this is that they and the person they went to in confidence and for guidance have bypassed me in there method for dealing with the accusations brought forth. I am angry and confused. I do not know fully the accusations that are made of me. I have not had a say in all that has happened. I have no where else to go.

Lord forgive me. Like so many times I have only thought of you at the last. You know my heart and the full truth of the situation. Forgive me for my anger. Let this not be a stumbling stone the drives me from the church but a turning point, let it guide me to a better life serving you. Also forgive the parties involved for any wrongful actions. Help me to fully forgive them and still continue to love them. Lord forgive me for what I have done wrong in this situation.

Collecting God

Everyone collects things. Some people collect knives, others stamps, some coins so on and so forth. I collect things too but a lot of time and money goes into these collections. The funniest part is it's all for nothing in the end. But what if someone had a collection that didn't lead to nothing. What if someone was collecting God? A weird thought I know but reading a bible verse or leading someone to the lord, just being a Christian is pretty much the best collection you'll ever start. And sure it's going to cost money and time but I'm pretty sure your going to enjoy this collection. There are great benefits too like there's a club and you'll get to meet this real famous guy. In fact a third of the collection is about him. Well anyway I think I could probably work a little harder on my collection. I know it will be worth it in the end when you finally have all of God.

Moderatly

What if? I'm sure everyone has a "what if". Like what if I kissed him that night or what if I didn't. Or what if I didn't get behind the wheel after that party. Past has Past and is no longer relevant except for to teach. Cruel I know and you may argue that the effects last longer. I am here to say that the past teaches and our heightened intelligence then allows us to cause the effects. Religion may try to argue this on me but I'm sure that the Lord has died and rose again, I'm also certain that he's not going to do it a second time. The Bible is a book to teach on life, it is not an effect of life the intelligence of life casued the effect. Anyway I'm tired and this argument is not articulating as well as imagined. Partially because I am too tired to word it properly. But my point is that if we get caught up on wondering something like "What if Jesus hadn't died for us" then we loss focus on the fact that he did and we don't learn from it.

Procrastination

Have you ever.... That's a great way to start. Well now it's down to business. I procrastinate it's just something I do. Here's the tricky part though. When to start to actually get it done on time. I don't like to be late. I hate it but I don't like to be incredibly early either. Gee I am kinda rambling. My point is that procrastination is not always a bad thing but it gets bad when you don't know if you'll have enough time to do what is needed. I.E. Reading your bible. I know I put off the important things a lot of the time. The only thing is tomorrow isn't guaranteed so shouldn't you just make sure that you got it covered in cased you wake up one day and tomorrow's gone?

Thrills

Thrills in life are a crazy thing. Some people get a thrill from stealing and others from drinking too much alcohol. Me? Well, I'll tell you I tried a lot of things for a cheap thrill. But the best one I ever had was giving to others. In essence being kind with out reason. I was on a high for practical the rest of the day. Which leads me to wonder why it's so hard to be kind. It's not like it's going to cost you as much as smoking pot or drinking you guts out. People find it so easy to do the worst things. I just wonder why!

Title screen

I am a loafer. I sit around and read blogs all day. Funny how I can make the time to read a blog and comment but so often I find myself making an excuse as to why I couldn't read God's word. I went to see 300 this weekend and it was interesting to me. I read a blog and it reminded me of the movie. The author talk a bit about war. You see I truly want to be a man of God. The weird part of that is you see Godly analogies everywhere even in gory movies like 300. Or another blogger talked about God being like a bus. What I am getting at is this; I made the choice in my heart that I want to be a God man and God saw it and took advantage of it. Now I can't get away even if I wanted to. I'm seeing God in everything. It's nice in a bizarre way and maybe you should try it some time.

Mangled Reports

How do you react? Have you ever had knowledge about something but it wasn't direct. Like you knew that a friend of yours was moving but they hadn't told you yet? If you were in that situation how would you react? I don't really know how to react. I have this gut instinct telling me to be angry, frustrated and to act almost like someone stole something from me. Then I have this feeling like maybe they just didn't know how to tell me or something came up. Like the positive side. Or maybe this has happened all because of a mangled report. Like it's all one misunderstanding and soon it will be explained. I have to hope that is what it is. I have to trust God with it.

Trying What?

Bless the lord. That's pretty much all I can say. I wanted to say how I've been trying some stuff on recommendation and well it's not working as I hoped it would. Have you ever known something and someone else just didn't see it the same way? Well that's how it is but still Bless the Lord he can give and take away, everything I have is his anyway.

Walking on water

Just think about this for one moment. Jesus walks on water right? And then Peter says Lord call me and I will come. So he did and Peter went. Peter was walking on water for a minute. Then he started to sink. Jesus caught him and said oh ye of little faith why did you doubt. Now imagine your latest problem as water. Jesus is sitting there on top of it calling you from the boat. Will you go to Jesus. I used to look at that story and say man Peter sucked he was walking on the water already and then he doubted. Like what kinda fool would do that. But lately I can't help thinking he was the one disciple who left the boat. If I was there would I be Peter and at least leave the boat? Or will I be like the rest and sit in the boat hoping it wont sink. Peter took a risk. Sure he failed but God was right there to catch him. And the funnier thing is God never said you shouldn't have left the boat you fool. No, God said why did you doubt. Like maybe, just maybe we are supposed to take risks? Oh well, I don't know all I know is I would rather be the one leaving the boat and I hope that given the chance I will be.

Existance

Life? I heard a quote, I can't remember who the author of the quoted section was but they said "The only philosophical question is whether or not to live." There are some days when I feel so "not here" anyways that I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't.
Anyway I was talking to a good friend today and he inquired about the extent of my friendships besides his. That is something I often wanted, to have a lot of friends. I never viewed myself as popular. In fact for most of my life I could say I only had 2 or 3 friends. But now I would say I have an army of friends. I got so focused on how bad I thought I had it that I really couldn't see Gods blessings. I am just lucky I have a God that loves me so much.

Cryin in my own arms

I found myself crying this morning. You know the kinda crying where you feel everything is just going wrong? Well maybe not but that is how it was. I just keep falling into this big bear trap of temptation. I end yesterday on like the best note I could have possibly ever. Then this morning I got up and I was just meditating and it was awesome. I felt so connected and I love that. But then I was tempted and so I fled like I should only to find some how temptation just followed me. Like I couldn't run far enough or temptation tripped me on the way. I admit I fell and I hate that. But the part I love God still loves me and well.... I know he forgives me but like I don't care that I fell really it's just the way I fell. Why can't I just jump over the out stretched leg of temptation and keep going. That's why I was crying.

Advice

People always want advice. They've made giving advice a profession now even. I guess you know in a sense being a Pastor falls into that category. Not that I have anything against giving advice but what's the limit. I mean how far will we go to not lean on God's advice? I guess getting advice from a friend on a particular issue isn't such a bad thing heck I do it all the time. But to pay to go to a therapist for an hour on how you should live your life? One question is how are they saying you should live your life. To the worlds standards? Are they telling you that you need a better job or anything of the sort? Well I refuse to conform to the worlds standards. If I need advice I have my friends and Pastors. Maybe one day I'll be a Pastor but if that happens I'll be sure to be giving my advice and leadership from where it counts which is the word.