Cryin in my own arms

I found myself crying this morning. You know the kinda crying where you feel everything is just going wrong? Well maybe not but that is how it was. I just keep falling into this big bear trap of temptation. I end yesterday on like the best note I could have possibly ever. Then this morning I got up and I was just meditating and it was awesome. I felt so connected and I love that. But then I was tempted and so I fled like I should only to find some how temptation just followed me. Like I couldn't run far enough or temptation tripped me on the way. I admit I fell and I hate that. But the part I love God still loves me and well.... I know he forgives me but like I don't care that I fell really it's just the way I fell. Why can't I just jump over the out stretched leg of temptation and keep going. That's why I was crying.