Existance

Life? I heard a quote, I can't remember who the author of the quoted section was but they said "The only philosophical question is whether or not to live." There are some days when I feel so "not here" anyways that I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't.
Anyway I was talking to a good friend today and he inquired about the extent of my friendships besides his. That is something I often wanted, to have a lot of friends. I never viewed myself as popular. In fact for most of my life I could say I only had 2 or 3 friends. But now I would say I have an army of friends. I got so focused on how bad I thought I had it that I really couldn't see Gods blessings. I am just lucky I have a God that loves me so much.